my working woman anniversary 

So,, may 15 marks one year since i was a full time accountant by day and a mommy by night. I am somewhat filled with doom and gloom when i think about this. All my mad excel skillz totally going to waste. All my awesome email skills, presentation skills, research skills, totally unused and growing stale. I am very grateful to be in a position that i can stay at home with my babies.  I love them more than i can express. I love taking them fun places, I love making them giggle and watching them play, and i love being there to kiss their boo-boos and wipe their tears. I would miss out on a million moments if i was back at work right now, so yes, this is the right place for me to be (for now). Plus, i tried the working full time thing with Dixie and I just felt so guilty every single day at work, and I could no longer give 100% to my job, it was more like a watered down 70%, so that made me feel guilty on the flip side!

But, this doesn't mean i don't miss working. I love corporate life. I love spreadsheets. I love figuring out differences, I love acquisition accounting and I love a good project. Oh, I also love business lunches at fancy restaurants, and business travel to fun places.  (hello London with my bestie Harmandeep circa 2006!)

So, heres to the next few years staying at home until my babies are on school. I'm going to enjoy every second of them, as i know they will pass quickly.  I also know that im going to be an accounting dinosaur by the time they are ready for me to go back to work, so i might just have to work in a masters degree before I re-enter the work force. Hmmm... food for thought. Not sure if i can really handle being a student again?!? Decisions decisions!

Oh, and another thing.  As a mom, I am irreplaceable.  No one else can be Dixie and Lucy's mom.  As an accountant, I am completely replaceable. Anyone can take my job over.  This was made so apparent to me this last week.  The Controller of my former company (aka, my boss', boss', boss) was with the company just shy of 10 yrs.  I saw him on the day I gave my notice to my primary boss. I was going to say good bye to him too, but he seemed so incredibly stressed out, that I just didn't. It seriously looked like his head was going to burst.  He is normally, calm, cool and collected... but he wasnt that day.  About 2 weeks later, he had a major stroke. Thankfully, he has made a good recovery, he can walk and is not paralyzed, but his speech is very limited and he struggles to find words.  I called my boss last week to check in, and she let me know that he had been laid off. I was dumbfounded and heartbroken for him.  He has a family to support, he is such a nice guy, and he is/was amazing at his job.  However, the company's Board of directors really didn't care about his loyalty to the company, his past service, or his family. They just needed the job done and they found someone else to do it, that had a full vocabulary.  My heart literary sunk into my stomach when I found this out.  At the same time, I really for the first time realized that My job as a mom is way more important than whatever job I can get as an accountant. I am not replaceable to dixie and lucy. SO yes, this is where I need to be right now.

XO
Eve

11 months

My sweet baby Lucy is 11 months already! I cannot believe how quickly the time has gone. Seriously, since she started crawling (at 10 months), she hasn’t stopped. She entertains herself most of the time by pulling open drawers and pillaging the contents, stealing Dixie’s toys, and finding delicious morsels buried in the carpet, ha!

She pulls herself up to standing, claps her hands, and loves to play catch and peakaboo with a blanket. She is really quite playful.  She holds her own with her big sister Dixie. One day on stroller walk in the double bob, Lucy snatched Dixie’s popsicle with one hand and blocked Dixie from retrieving it with the other hand.  She is a lot more aggressive that Dixie ever was or is… probably because she knows its survival of the fittest around these parts.

I planted tulips in the fall, but you wouldn’t know it by looking at my yard. Lucy has successfully pulled out each one the very day that each has bloomed. I’ve decided not to plant anymore flowers this year, as I fear they will all meet this same sad fate.

I’ve had to move the diapers and creams from the diaper table (which is right next to Lucy’s crib). On more than one occasion I’ve went to get Lucy after a nap and her face is covered in diaper cream with diapers strewn about her crib.  The girl has got some mad reaching and grabbing skills.

Lucy LOVES the bathtub and will not sit still in it. She crawls the entire length of it, pulls to standing and loves to play with the faucet. She can even turn on the water, oh mercy me! I cannot even blink during bath time, for fear of a head injury/drowning.

Lucy’s favorite activity is crawling up the stairs. She make a B-line

for them anytime we are downstairs, which has kind of put a kibosh on my  Dora downtime (when I stick Dixie in front of an episode of dora), as I am now in constant chase mode. Im tring to teach her how to also go down the stairs, but I haven’t had much success yet.

Lucy loves to play “chase” with her daddy too.

Oh, and interesting to note that Lucy was always in the 95% for height and weight until she started crawling and she’s dropped just under 50% now. She is a mover that is for sure. She still LOVES to eat though and usually eats her food plus dixie’s at meal time. I’m pretty sure Dixie exists solely on otter pops and pirate booty these days.

Dixie and Lucy are becoming quite the little pair. Lucy terrorizes Dixie all of the time, but Dixie just continues to say things like “I love lucy”, “Lucy loves me”, and she showers her with kisses and hugs. Dixie is also very protective of Lucy. When we were at the park one day another little girl came up to lucy and tried to play with her. Dixie immediately swooped in, gave lucy a hug body guard hug, and said, “Shes MY sister”…..

We love our 2 little girlies. Its so fun to watch them grow together, play together and love each other. I continue to tell Dixie that Lucy is her best friend, and Dixie will often repeat this. Hopefully it sticks.

XO

eve